Today is day one of 3.5 months and I am having an extremely hard time. I have cried more today then I have combined in a decade, and I don't think that is an exaggeration. I have the WORST possible headache, my eyes ache and my whole entire face is puffy. I have cried off and on for the last few days. Preparing for him to leave to rough. I love my Wade and I don't do well without him. I am independent is a lot of ways but DEFINITELY a companion type of person and not very independent when it comes to Wade. I love him near and NEED him near me. I don't even do well being away for a weekend. Boo :(
We took him to the airport at 6am today and he flew to Alabama where he will be until December. The first 5 weeks is officer training. In short, it's boot camp for all medical, law, chaplain officers. It's gunna be rough. The worst part is that he can't really call for the 5 weeks. For me, that is a huge issue. I talk to Wade a million times on the phone per day and I look forward to hearing from him. Ughhh. So hopefully we will be able to fly him home at the end of Officer Training for 10 days. That's the only saving grace for me to get through this. After his break he goes back for 9.5 weeks of JAG school. It's pretty much like a mini law school semester but all about military law. Then in December we will meet up in AZ and start our lives over.
I really don't know how I am going to get through this. Hopefully the time will fly and I will be able to adjust to not having Wade here. My one regret is not staying in Lubbock for at least this time. I have loved being with family this summer but now I wish I could go back and be with my friends and the busy, fun life I had there. I think it would make this easier. Being here is difficult because the few friends I have here work or are crazy busy with older kids. I am going to have to get creative. Wade told me tonight on the phone that he wants me to do anything that will distract me from being miserable...he said even eating out for every meal or going shopping everyday. :) See why I love him?
He did give me and the kids blessings last night and I am thankful for that and the things that were told to me. I am proud of Wade. Even though this job has been and will be a huge sacrifice in the recent future, this job is a HUGE blessing and honor. 3% of applicants get the honor of being hired. Wade was one of them. And this job has some major benefits that will bless our family. See if I can remember these things, I stop crying :) But then I think of heading to bed tonight and not being able to say my prayer with Wade and not have him say, "goodnight babes before" I fall asleep and then I start all over!
Tomorrow will be better.
Sorry for the sap post. Sometimes mushy posts make me feel weird. But this job unfortunately is going to have more of these times when Wade leaves. And I am a huge believer in journaling for my posterity, just like President Iring has counseled us to do. So mush or no mush, it's gotta be done :)
Good night!
Come back soon Wade :) I miss you.
2 comments:
I don't know if it will be the same for Wade, but when Todd was at COT, we eventually were able to talk and normally multiple times a day. They start to lighten up a little after the first week or two and they will have breaks during the day and then at night. Good luck! No fun for you. :(
Oh...Lindsay! I wish I was there so we could play A LOT! I remember getting on the plane after spending the weekend in Vegas as he was going to be gone for 18 weeks and I cried like you wouldn't believe...and many many days after. Have lived through it, my only advice is this...write him love notes often :) maybe even include a sappy mix CD of songs that remind you of him and start getting busy. I feel like the business was the only thing that helped me survive! But the nights certainly get lonely (when you are solo in your bed with no one to cuddle.) So grab a good book...or a good book to help you fall asleep. I don't envy this time...but it will go by fast...and if you win the lottery (or if I do...) you can fly out to the great state of PA and hang out with me for awhile :) Miss you!
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