Thoughts with 3 days to go

I seriously cannot believe that we are having a baby this week. I have so many thoughts and feelings going on and have been wanting to write them down.

 

* 3 more days! Ahhh. I am honestly having the hardest time coming to terms with this. Every time I express this to my sister she says, " It's because you waited too long between kids with a four year gap." I totally agree and disagree, but this last 4 years have been the very best. I have sooooo enjoyed my kids. They are older now and that allows us to do so many fun things. I have really enjoyed having just Brooklyn before Weston came along and now I have been able to really enjoy Weston one on one. I definitely don't regret waiting this long. Although, it does make it more difficult to adjust back to baby mode.

 

*I probably feel better/more comfortable now then I did a month ago. I don't know if it's the baby's position or what, but I can bend over easier, sleep better, walk around and do things easier. It's been nice. I could easily go another month. I didn't get very big which makes being 39 weeks pregnant more comfortable. This pregnancy has been a dream. Definitely the best and easiest so far.

 *This pregnancy flew by. I think I can thank huge changes and a crazy life for that. I cannot believe it's time to bring baby # 3 here. It's a crazy feeling. I feel like I am doing this for the first time. I am nervous for labor, epidural, the recovery, ect. I don't remember feeling this way with Weston. I hope every thing goes well.

 

*Wade and I are still conflicted on the name and middle name. I just want us to be both in love with the name like we were with the other two. Wade is so kind and says the name I picked can be it, but I want him 100% on board. He just hasn't come up with anything. Oh except the middle name he says is Gustav. I guess it's a family name with tons of history. I am 100% not on board with it however. It's definitely not my type of name, even though we want the middle names to be family names. I guess we will see what the kid's name turns out to be :)

These were my Vday flowers. Loved them and love that Wade gets me different flowers every time and not just the normal roses. Although, I love roses too.

*Wade gets 10 days of paternity leave that doesn't come out of his vacation leave. It's so nice and I am excited he gets to be home for awhile. He is sooooooooooooooo busy at work, I can't even keep up with his crazy life.

*Speaking of crazy life, today I got called into the RS presidency. I am so beyond grateful because I need to be serving more. When I was the YW president my life was so rich because I was serving so much and so close to the spirit. I have been missing both of those things soooo bad and have been praying for ways to fulfill both of those needs better. And...my prayers were answered today. This calling is very out of my comfort zone though so I know I will grow a lot :)

*Brooklyn and Weston are so so excited. I cannot wait to see them with their baby. One bonus to having this four year gap is having two older kids that can help and really understand the wonderful love of welcoming a baby into the family.

* I can't imagine how much life is going to change in the next few weeks. I am not looking forward to a lot of things, but at the same time, I am soooo excited for the baby smell, the frog legs, the little onsies, and most of all the cuddling that comes with newborns. I am hoping this little one takes after his two older siblings and is a good baby, sleeps and eats well and is easy. But...I think I am due for a hard kid, so we will see :)

Next post I will introduce our newest family member. What a crazy thought :)